high school can be so fucking tough, hence why I haven’t updated my blog in god knows how long. But honestly, I don’t know how I expected myself to keep this shit up with everything that goes on. I came into year 10 thinking it would be one of the best years of high school, but as I’ve slowly figured out, it wasn’t. its September and I’m in my last week of my second last term of year 10 and honestly I am on the rockiest road I’ve ever been on. For most teenage girls, popularity and social status is a big priority, but for the smarter ones that shit means nothing for them. Unfortunately for me, I’m one of those girls who’s biggest priority is their social status and their growing list of parties and boys. I absolutely 100% care about my school work. Even tho Im the laziest bitch in the world and doesn’t finish off her assignments, i know I care about my school results 100% because I 100% know I do NOT want to end up on the doll, still living in Brisbane. I want what every 10 year old wants, to be famous and wealthy and partying at the craziest of parties, with the most exotic celebrities. Music is my passion and I dream of being in a grunge girl kinda band to start my successful career off, to then go solo and do all sorts of stuff like star in movies, tour world wide. THE LOT! but I also know that if I want that I have to work fucking hard, and worrying about keeping my snap streaks up to date is not going to get me nothing. well, a social status. I don’t study music, but honestly I don’t have to, I take private vocal lessons, guitar lessons and piano lessons and I’m fairly good if I say so myself. I’ve got it in the bag, I just need to take that step forward to get that boost I need to start this crazy career off. But first I NEED to get my priorities straight.
my priorities atm:
- get myself the Man I have my eyes on
- stay relevant
- don’t lose your fucking snap streak
- making sure I look good 80% of the time so i can update my Instagram and gain more followers
- parties, don’t forget about being a priority for the guest list
- be envied
yeah believe it or not as fucked up as this list is, its the honest truth. and this list right here is my biggest issue. Listen up girls, if your like me and this is your priority list, sort your shit out cause believe me its not getting no one no where……. except maybe some dick, and an STD if your not careful. NOT THAT I HAVE ONE cause I don’t. thats another thing, the more relevant you become, the more people will envy you and the more people envy you the more rumours start to be spread about you. I will do whatever it takes to get myself into the higher ranks, and when that means sending revealing or risky photos as your streaks or on your story, then I will do that. although I’ve only ever sent one nude in my life to one guy that I trust completely cause like he’s an amazing friend of mine, apart from that I’ve never had sex, never sucked a dick, never given a hand job and never received. I’ve been fingered and thats about it. But still, people talk and I give them that opportunity unintentionally. I was told the other day that somebody had said to this person that I had fucked so many guys. PROOF THANKYOU? If you put your body out there and wear a lot of makeup and make out with a new guy at every party you go to then you are gonna get this kind of stuff going around about you. But at the same time, not everybody cares because its normal now for kids our age to be having frequent sex. theres so much to be concerned about and to keep up with in our social world that we hardly notice the things that are truly important. and by we I mean the girls who care about social media and status. socially our world is brutal and when you want to become and stay relevant then this is what your going to get. and it doesn’t make anyone happy, I’m suffering from anxiety and depression because I’m so concerned I’m not good enough. But the thing is, ask yourself this. Will any of this benefit me when I graduate? will I stay friends with any of these people when I graduate? Will they get me a job? will they pay my bills? Do they have my best interests at heart? the only people you should be trying to impress or stay relevant to is the people who love you the most for who your are, your true friends whether that be 1 person or 5 people, quantity doesn’t matter quality does, and thats still what I’m trying to work on myself. I’m not saying having a large social circle is a bad thing, because I have a large social circle, its just how you manage yourself outside of that circle that is the biggest dilemma.
lets get our priorities straight:
- study hard for the best results
- be yourself
- its ok to be selfish because only you can get you places
- 2’s company 3’s a crowd
- focus on the good times you do have when your on top of your school work
- appreciate
now that I’ve gotten my priorities straight. lets get into the pressures you will face. Fomo. thats right Fomo. Everyones got it. F – fear O – of M – missing O – out. That is dead set the biggest struggle you will face. Its your biggest demon its the number one cause to the insane amount of pressure you will face. High school is the years of experimentation. First pressure right there. Experimenting. And this is an area that fomo plays a very big role in. Sex is a primary example of a situation where fomo and experimentation comes into play. Having sex for the first time is different for everybody, but for certain everybody gets scared. I know I am. Although sexually I’m inexperienced, I know a thing or two. I know that there is a massive pressure. For me, the fact that people think I am experienced puts the pressure onto me to become more experienced because thats what a guy is expecting. Theres also that pressure of keeping up, when many of your friends are sexually more experienced and further ahead of you then you do not want to be left behind. Hardly anybody I know wants to be inexperienced in sex before they leave high school. Theres this pressure, this constant voice in your head that is telling you that you have to catch up to gain more experience before you leave high school, because you can imagine that not many people want to leave high school and have their first sexual encounter with a guy who has had a lot of sex and would be surprised by the fact that you at 18-20 have not had sex. you don’t want fomo to get the better of you in this situation because that pressure can lead to a lot of big mistakes. I think the most attractive thing about anybody, is their confidence and a person running their own race. Going at your own pace, is possibly the most courageous most valuable trait somebody could have, because it defines them as a person, sets their expectations and their value. Their are other situations where Fomo comes into play, but the other big one is just parties and socials. We have to remember that with technology these days, people may only be showing people how they want their lives to be perceived not how themselves really see it. You may think your life sucks, your life is boring your not allowed out or not allowed as much freedom as other kids, but in reality your only seeing what they are showing you. They may have the strictest parents in the world, they might be studying really hard to get to places they wanna be, but they just don’t show that side of their lives, your only seeing the good times. You know how I know thats for real? because I do the exact same thing. I have friends that I KNOW study super hard and have strict parents, but all I ever see on their snaps is them getting dressed up to go out, or them always in the city. But I know thats not always the case. Even though I know this, ts still extremely hard and fomo still gets the better of me. So I understand exactly how you feel when you feel as if it doesn’t mater what anybody else says, because I feel the same way. There is a lot of intense pressure in high school I know that for sure, I’m facing a lot of pressure right now, getting better with my depression and anxiety, to focus on school more and not waste as much time on social media which is gonna be the BIGGEST struggle. My biggest pressure for me, is to be myself. I still don’t know who I am fully and I don’t fully understand myself therefore putting this insane amount of pressure on me to find myself and my image. Girls, boys whoever is reading, I hope I have entertained you and that maybe you will take something from this :)))
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